Wednesday, December 31, 2014
New Years is my favorite holiday and this year it snuck up on me. It caught me at a strange transition in between barely grasping for the things I want and letting go (or being let go of) those things I thought I did. It's found me stretched pretty thin and tired and ever hopeful that things will get better. It's found me listening to those same songs I did in summer of 2010. It's found me feeling incredibly grateful for such an amazing year behind me, a year that tested my limits and grew me in ways I didn't think were possible and in ways I didn't think I needed. It's found me shaking for excitement and for fear of the future, and mounting my feet hard with the ground because the world spins madly on, no matter how badly I want it to stop. I'm just trying to enjoy the ride.
I don't to this every year, but sometimes I have strange feelings about things and they always come true. 2015 has that feeling about it, it's whispering to me that really ridiculous and crazy and scary and amazing things are going to happen.
Therefore I promise in 2015:
1. I will say "eff it" and go on adventures with people I know and with people I don't.
2. I will live for the moment and not worry about replies or what I think people think of me.
3. I will not allow anything I feel to stop me from living life normally.
4. I will make art.
5. I will remember that my life is my own and not anyone else's, and therefore I will not compare my life to anyone.
6. I will find the beauty in everything, even the destitute reaches of my own mind.
7. I will project beauty into the world through the things I do and create.
8. I will not take myself so seriously, and have a little bit of fun.
9. I will explore creation as much as I can, and then some.
10. I will love with my whole heart.
I will also be mindful of my time, be kind and generous to others, and be thankful. I think 2015 will be one of the scariest years. It's the year I become a senior in college and *actually* kind of figure out the rest of my life. It's kind of the year I become an adult. It will be the year I buy my first apartment (with my housemates helping me, of course), the year I travel outside of the country alone, the year I go into junior portfolio review to become a senior in the art department (aka the review that all juniors freak out about). There are a lot of transitions/decisions that will occur.
2014 was fantastic though. Some highlights:
Turned 20 and had a beautiful birthday on the beach.
Created The Student Collective (our yearbook) with some insanely creative people.
Played with (and then purchased) real lighting equipment for the first time.
Started making the conscious decision to change my personal style.
Finished sophomore year of college with the Triple "S" Award (photography award).
Published my origami photo series.
Went camping at some really gorgeous places.
Did my first boudoir photo shoot and loved it.
Fell in love with Aces hockey!
Flew back to Oregon to photograph the most perfect wedding and felt wonderful and independent.
Flew back to Alaska and photographed the Emma Hill band for their newest album.
Modeled a little bit for my boss.
Photographed a comedian.
Did a huge collaboration with a model and makeup artist and discovered the second most beautiful place in the entire world.
Then the very next day went on a photo workshop with my boss and discovered the first most beautiful place.
Hung up my first coffee shop show.
Photographed more super talented musicians.
Flew back to Oregon and jumped in the Willamette river.
Became the Creative Director of The Student Collective.
Became the blogger for the Art & Design Department blog.
Took the plunge and bleached my hair and grew out my bangs.
Went camping with my housemates.
Did my first night photo shoot at the craziest Art Retreat ever.
Went to Seattle for the first time.
Won a tablet from instagram.
Fell pretty hopelessly in love with drawing, thanks to my Drawing II professor.
Went to a Relient K concert with my housemates.
Learned more about art than ever before, and started exploring other mediums from photography.
Put up my first installation piece.
Attempted photorealistic drawing. (And succeeded!)
Got off the waitlist for New Zealand (not really my doing, but still exciting).
Continued to fall deeper in love with my friends, with Matt, and with the life I am blessed to live.
One reason why I love New Year's is because it is so fleeting. Everyone prepares for a moment, a brief point in time between 11:59pm and 12:00am that only lasts for a breath. I don't have the words to explain why I love that, but it's one of the most beautiful things. I think I would like to live my entire life in that breath.
2015, let's do this.
(2013 in review // 2013 resolutions)
Monday, December 30, 2013
Wow, I can hardly believe another year has come and gone. I know it's been said that the older people get, the faster the years seem to fly by, but I never realized how fast they would be. Below are my favorite (documented) outfits of the year, as well as a recap on some things that I've been up to. (And here is 2011 and 2012)
January; Got to meet some amazing photographers and start taking my first photography class!
February; Held my first gallery show
March; Did a fun week of remixing over spring break.
April; Won my school's photography award.
May; Was featured in BokehOnline.
June; Went camping at the Russian River and Trail River, and participated in the Color Run.
July; Did a behind-the-scenes for my "Gold" photo, and photographed the 2013 Expedition Day Camp.
August; Finished my summer photography internship and went on an amazing backpacking trip.
September; Began my sophomore year of college strong by dying my hair purple, participating in the Color Run and being hired for the new yearbook staff!
October; Went on a beautiful Art Retreat, photographed the Bellarive + Digital Age concert, and went to the pumpkin patch
November; Was a pretty non-blogging month, but I went to the Switchfoot Concert and the Winter Formal with Matt, and had my photos published in Clubhouse Jr. Magazine.
December; Finished up the school year and came back to Alaska for winter break.
I hope you all had a very wonderful 2013, and may 2014 be even better!
Monday, December 2, 2013
It's been a rather quiet month, and yet I'm not quite sure where the time has gone. November went by so fast but I don't remember what happened, but for the most part it's been good.
I can't believe it's already the last month of the year.
Sunday, November 3, 2013
Man, this month just flew by. I've been really busy with school and life, but it's good. It's been a blur, I can hardly remember all the little details that occurred this month, but I do know that they were good things.
Hope you had a wonderful month as well!
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
September has been a very busy month for me. I've been working nonstop in school, and it doesn't seem to be slowing down any time soon. This weekend I'm going to the beach, which I hope will clear my head a bit. September was great, but I can't wait to see what opportunities October has in store!
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
Thursday, August 1, 2013
July has been a long, weird month, but for a reason that I can't quite put my finger on. I think about a third of the way through the month was when I was ready to go back to Oregon to see my friends, but I still had 1 2/3 months to go so there was a lot of "friend-home-school-sickness" going on. But now July is over (so weird half of the year is over with now!) and I only have twenty seven days in Alaska before I hop on a plane (next to Matt and his brother this time!) and fly to beautiful Oregon. Let the countdown begin.