time is ticking

day 164




Today has been a cold, rainy day. It feels like this week has lasted forever but it's only Tuesday. I hate not knowing what day it is. Already the 12th of June? Where has the time gone? 72 days until I have to be at college and today was one of those days where I got really scared about it. I'm not scared about going to college; I'm scared about leaving home. I'm going to have to buy my own shampoo and soap now. I realized that as I was taking my shower and it was the weirdest feeling in the world. I also don't want to be away from Matt. I'm not worried about our relationship, I'm just going to really miss seeing him and being able to hold his hand. I'll only be able to hold it for 72 more days.