dress/shirt: borrowed // tights: forever 21 // shoes: target
Sometimes it seems like I can never get ahead in life. Shoots don't work out, I don't get any new clients for months, the rare one I do get backs out, galleries say no, on and on the list goes. One begins to wonder, "Am I good enough? What am I doing wrong? What do I have to do better? Will I ever do anything right?"
I finally broke down a couple nights ago, feeling pretty low and stressed out. Sometimes life is just hard, you know? Things don't always go the way we plan, situations change, people disappoint you. These kinds of things aren't always fun to write about, but the bad things are just as necessary to life as the good things. Sometimes it's okay to cry. And honestly, it's really freeing once you do. It reminds me of my favorite short story, "Eleven" by Sandra Cisneros. It's a story about a girl on her eleventh birthday and is really contemplative and a different look at our age and how people grow up. When you're eleven, you're also ten, and nine, and eight, and so on and so forth. So sometimes five year old you has to come out and cry a little bit. And that's okay. It's good to let go and just cry. But then it's also good to afterwards try to improve. Everything, even the bad things in life, fall into place and provide you with ways of growing as a human being.
For me, I'm trying hard to see that failure is a good thing, and is an opportunity to hone in craft and become a better person all around.
As for my outfit, I wore this several days ago, back when it was bearable to wear short sleeves for an extended period of time. (Now though? Not so much.) I wanted to focus on color and pattern, rather than shape, as it's hard for me to wear loose fitting pieces such as this shirt. It was the perfect lazy day outfit that didn't look too lazy, so I was happy. You know those days. Where you just want to walk around in a blanket? Just wear oversized shirts and you're good to go.
Have a great day!
Getting ready for the Sophomore black and white murder mystery party. I won $50 by correctly guessing the murderer and getting my name pulled out of a hat. // Going on a date with Matt to the Switchfoot concert. Drew threw him his guitar pick at the end of the show. // Receiving my new sketchbook in the mail. I've been drawing in it constantly. // Sketching Thom Yorke. One of my favorite drawings yet! // The best, safest, most wonderful place in the entire world--in your arms. // Building a fort in our apartment! Hilarious telestrations followed. // Finishing up a photoshoot that included glitter, a fog machine, and lots and lots of flour! So excited for the results!
You can follow the adventure on instagram @impulsings.
This is the longest video I've posted for the film friday series, but I promise you it is worth the watch.
The description of the film is as follows:
"Filmmaker Marc Isaacs sets himself up in a London tower block lift. The residents come to trust him and reveal the things that matter to them creating a humorous and moving portrait of a vertical community."
It's a film kind of about a man who sits in an elevator and interviews people. But it is mostly about human life, the beauty of it, its tragedies and hardships, its happinesses. You will walk away from this film feeling really thankful and blessed to be a part of the human race.
Have a wonderful weekend.
